Brace yourselves.

Today, I FINALLY left my apartment just for the heck of it.

I know. Weird concept when I don't have school, right?

I had nothing to do (there's a shocker), my iPod had died, which meant I couldn't watch any more "Vampire Diaries" (my latest obsession, I'm ashamed to admit), and I had thought about going up to the gardens on campus and taking some pictures.

And now I shall show them to you. :)

Enjoy my awesome (but totally not professional) photography skills!

 The roof of a gazebo thing.

 Focus on the pillar... 

 Now focus is on the vine. I love being able to do this kind of stuff with my camera :)

 Cool little house thing.

 The advanced garden specialists students (or whatever they are) REALLY like making arches. There's at least ten throughout the gardens.

 While I was taking these pictures, there was a man pouring this blue stuff in the ponds. I guess they're sanitizing it...or something. Either way, it looked cool.

 Lily pads.

 Waterfalls. There are also several of these throughout the gardens.

 It looks like a man-made bouquet of roses...but they grew like this. Honest.

 It took me a while to get this picture to work. But it sure looks cool, right? :)

 The chains supporting the swing bench thing I was sitting on.

 True story.

 There are four trees that look like this at the base. Nice little spot to sit.

 You can't really tell...but there's a bird in this picture.

 This sun looks happy...in a creepy way.

 Half of an arch.

 This statue also looks creepy...almost as if he's the entertainer that poisoned his masters, and is watching them drink the poison while still providing entertainment. Yes, my mind is weird.

  

 It suddenly got super windy at this point, and it was causing ripples on the water.

 It was so windy, it caused this grass stuff to basically bend at a 45* angle.

 This lizard totally has 11 spots on it's back. Said spots are yellow. Please tell me someone knows what I'm referring to.

 SO. PRETTY.

 It basically made my day when I noticed these white daisies had a smidge of purple in their center. Why? Because anything that has purple involved with it is automatically favorite.

 Not in the gardens, but it's still a waterfall on campus. Like I said, they really like them here. For some reason.

 So many beautiful colors.

Congratulations! You made it to the end of this post! In conclusion, I REALLY like taking pictures of flowers. Don't know why.

Have a great day. :)

I'm sick.

I'm sick and tired of EVERYONE in this stupid town having their happy ending, while I sit on my couch and can only dream of what it would be like to:

Be in a relationship. To be in that twitterpated stage. To feel like when I'm with him, nothing can go wrong.

Be engaged. To still be in that twitterpated stage, only at an increased level. To feel like no matter what details go into that big day, all that will matter is that at the end of it I will be with him for eternity.

Be married. To hopefully forever be in that twitterpated stage. To feel like he is my knight in shining armor, my retard in tin foil, or simply just mine. And no one else's.

I know I'm only 20, and that these are not feelings I should be having. But this is honestly how I feel, and how I've felt for a LONG time. And I'm sick of it, and I want it to end.

And since nobody ever reads this unless I post a link to it on Facebook, I don't think anybody will ever know that this is how I feel at this exact moment.

Awesome.